Potential

You know that moment?  That sweet hanging precipice, the sharp edge our words can live on until someone tips their hand, pushes those final sealing words, toppling to the ground; 


a blood sacrifice, pretending we didn’t prick our tongues, prayed to the gods, to make it not so?


And all that potential, clatters echoing into the realm of Neverwhere? 


So few moments exist like that as you age, as you swing doors open and the pressure change closes the rest; It’s a pitiful heart that swelled and felt, in a short time, all those possibilities, all that LIFE, punctured like a bright balloon darkening as it recedes.

Sometimes, I can’t tell if what we are mourning is what we didn’t get to see, or are we mourning what we won?

Anything for a prize. Even if it’s just a chocolate coin that later melts in our pocket. Anything for a taste of what that once was or will never be; sticky, messy, sweet.

Sweet. 

Sweet? 

That word is only allowed as bitters to this drink. I was handed a cup, preciously full and I drank too fast, too eagerly, stubborn in my persistence to gather those shards I could still see. 

My balloon heart fills and I take it, not knowing when it’ll spill again, if it ever will. But as it fills, it lightens, and the heaviness slips under those closed doors.

Published by AGirlDelighted

Why don't you come to my house? Why don't you drag me right out? Past all the shit that I said, I'm saying Why don't you cut up my mouth? And I don't care what you use Just don't ask me to choose I forced a field to allow you That's not so easy to do I said, I said what I said I want you to help me (Oh) Surrender, rend it, it's yours Out in the open We're wide open (Oh) Surrender, rend it, it's yours Locked in a body In love with the process of... Surrender, rend it, it's yours Out in the open We're wide open Night light comes into my room Some shade of bruise-colored blue Moves through my mind like a chemical Imbalance on schedule Rend It by Fugazi

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